Mystify, arouse, and confuse me
Shatter all my plans and illusions
That I might lose my way
Don’t let me see the path or the light
Until I am ready to be led
To the harbor of the poor and willing heart
When there seems to be no remedy for darkness
Don’t fear to sink into it
Let God reveal Himself in all things, thru faith
And trust is my gift back to you, God…
–Kevin Prosch, from “Every Ray,” Palaquin
Wendy Alec
In, Visions From Heaven, Wendy Alec recounts her conversations with God following a devastating two-year illness, which led to her husband’s abandonment.
Wendy and her former husband, Rory, started GOD TV, Europe’s first Christian television network. They had just signed on to work with Mark Ordesky, executive producer of Lord of The Rings, to make an A-grade secular blockbuster film from her end-times book series called, Chronicles of Brothers.
A week after she started working on the screenplay, she was hit with gastroperisis, a virus that damages the vagus nerve and causes intense and unending nausea. The condition was so rare that medical treatment had only been experimental.
Feeling nauseous from morning until night, she began losing weight at an alarming rate. She sought healing prayer, medical advice, specialists, naturopathic help, experimental treatment ideas and drugs, but nothing abated the distress of being chronically sick every day and not knowing if it would ever end.
Her children and husband were bewildered and angry.
They lived out of their suitcases.
Their pets were kenneled for an entire year.
They abandoned their home for an entire year.
Her ministry with GOD TV seemed all but over.
The movie production came to a screeching halt.
And eventually her husband left her for another woman.
Trapped in a debilitating illness, she had lost everything.
She wanted her life to be over.
God had been her all in all, but now she was reeling with abandonment. That was the hardest part.
Yet God was there the whole time. As the grip of her disease began to loosen, she had vivid conversations with Him in the night. God talked to her about the great sifting of His people, beginning with Job and Peter. That faith is proved genuine and strengthened beyond measure in these times. Or not. That people who come through it are prepared for a weighty “mantle” of responsibility and authority for the end-time season that is upon us. He answered her questions with tenderness and compassion.
Still, the trauma of her experience remained like a deep scar. She feared she would never feel safe again. How could such a bad thing happen to her when she had set her love on God?Continue reading
